Choices
Few days ago, i read my friend's blog about choices...being a Full Day Mother (FTM) or Working Mother (WM)...a very big issue for woman..and these choices have actually been something i think about ever since i was a little girl...and i already made my decision long time ago...
I'm not a mother yet, i haven't even got pregnant...but of course i'm married (for almost 4 months) and i want a child...
Having a mom who is an FTM really influence my way of thinking...
I never thought to be a carrier woman, with those ambition of gaining high position or wealth or anything...I just want to be like my mom...I want my full attention and time for my husband and children... I want to cook for them, i want to be available everytime my family needs me, i dont' wanna miss every single moment of my children's development, i don't wanna be confuse how to get days off if one of my family's getting sick...Just like my mom, Ibu Siaga...that's what we often call her...and im soooo proud of her...
But then, it didn't come up with me not getting into college and not working after i graduated...i'm working now, aren't i? It's just for temporary though..Why temporary? Why didn't i quit my job, now?
You know, I'm really thankful to God that i have a job...those people, high universities graduates, who are still looking hardly for some jobs make me very grateful that i already have one...but this is not my dream....
Well, in the future, i hope my knowledge of being a pharmacist can help me being an FTM who can still help my husband financially, that's why my dream is to have a pharmacy and clinic of my own....if it's mine i can have my own employess and control them from home without time boundaries or rules..i can still give my most attention for my family..anyway, i'm also having this dream to bring my parents to the Holy Land, Mecca....And also a lot of other dreams...
Having a mom who is an FTM really influence my way of thinking...
I never thought to be a carrier woman, with those ambition of gaining high position or wealth or anything...I just want to be like my mom...I want my full attention and time for my husband and children... I want to cook for them, i want to be available everytime my family needs me, i dont' wanna miss every single moment of my children's development, i don't wanna be confuse how to get days off if one of my family's getting sick...Just like my mom, Ibu Siaga...that's what we often call her...and im soooo proud of her...
But then, it didn't come up with me not getting into college and not working after i graduated...i'm working now, aren't i? It's just for temporary though..Why temporary? Why didn't i quit my job, now?
You know, I'm really thankful to God that i have a job...those people, high universities graduates, who are still looking hardly for some jobs make me very grateful that i already have one...but this is not my dream....
Well, in the future, i hope my knowledge of being a pharmacist can help me being an FTM who can still help my husband financially, that's why my dream is to have a pharmacy and clinic of my own....if it's mine i can have my own employess and control them from home without time boundaries or rules..i can still give my most attention for my family..anyway, i'm also having this dream to bring my parents to the Holy Land, Mecca....And also a lot of other dreams...
But well, to make the dreams come true is not as easy as snapping fingers..that's why now, me and my hubby, are working hard to get the dreams come true...that's why i don't quit my job now...that's why i'm still trying to survive living without my hubby besides me...although it's really hard and torchering...but i have to...knowing that someday my dream will definitely comes true....pray and effort...semangaaaat!! Hopefully, when my child has been born, i already can get out of this situation, and start being an FTM...
IMHO, our family is the most important thing, not carrer nor wealth nor money nor position...Our family is our investation, our chidren is our future....Prosperity is on God's hand...So never doubt about it...
Semoga aku bisa bersabar dan berserah diri, selalu...amin...
