Emptiness...
Emptiness...yep, that was exactly what i felt when my hubby went home on monday afternoon...though i had the chance to be with him longer than usual but it didn't make it easier to say goodbye...and so, the emptiness is still with me until today...
Hmppf, i know that a lot of people is facing the same situation like i am, living far from their husbands...what i don't know is, are they feeling the same? or maybe it's just me being spoiled...for me it's so hard to live like this...
For almost 8 years of our kinda-backstreet-relationship before we got married, 6 years i met him almost everyday (coz we studied in the sama college), eventhough just for a few hours...when i worked for the first time, still in bandung, i could meet him like once a week, but bcoz it was still in the same city, it didn't feel so hard...but then one year ago i moved to cilegon, and things were absolutely getting more difficult for me...thank God we still could survive the relationship and finally getting married last July (he is just unreplaceable,hehe)... though we still live separately untill now...everything has its own consequences, so i have to face this...
Sometimes i feel like a zombie, living each day with no consciousness, only waiting for the next weekend so i can meet my hubby...whoaaa, say i'm a fool, say i'm overreacting, but i really miss him so much...
But sometimes (when my brain is in a good shape, aigh, haha) i have the spirit to live my life in a better way, with the hope that soooooon i can be with my hubby..soon...soon...amin...
Semangat asriii...the time will come...semoga ada rejekinya, amin.... :) :) :)
